28 & 30 October & 5, 12, 14, 28 November & 12 decemer| 15 – 17h

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About this event

WHO’S GOING TO DIE IF I KILL MY SELF? is a video, performance, and sculptural installation inspired by EMIRHAKIN’s experience in, and in hindsight of, the Turkish military. Using his own experience of compulsory military service as his point of reflection, in relation to his queer identity, this installation and performance makes visible the oppressive structures that he had to endure and the acts of social camouflage that he had to engage in. The work, which takes a new site-specific form, will be presented as a permanent installation which will be activated through a series of looping performances in which EMIRHAKIN recites, re-enacts, and re-encounters the institutional and social boundaries that were placed on him. These performances, which will take place seven times during the exhibition period, are vital to the work as it takes on added, and layered, meaning when mediated through the artist’s body. In this new iteration of the performance, which builds on the original, EMIRHAKIN will be engaging with the intersection between death rituals in Islam and the mystic expression of the Islamic faith, Sufism, and how it frames ‘dying before you die’.

Trigger Warning: Explicit Content. Physical Violence / Pornography which some viewers may find disturbing. It is intended for mature audiences. Viewer discretion.

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EMIRHAKIN is an artist working with text, performance, and video art. He investigates the Self as an illusion that is armed by a constellation of characters given by others to answer the question: who is EMIRHAKIN?

CREDITS: Costume by GmBH; Stage Construction by Mylan Hoezen; Sound Design by Yara Said a.k.a noisediva; Facecasting by Sanne Visscher and Lawrence Kelatow; Screenprint by Brent Dahl; Publication Printed by Drukkerij Raddraaier SSP; Special thanks to Nagaré Willemsen and Serhat Işık.


W139 is changing their admission policy to explore a principle of solidarity in a new way: Pay-it-forward.

This new move is part of a sustainable plan to create a diversity of funding sources for W139. When visiting W139, your entrance ticket costs €3, but you can pay €6, €9 or more to pay-it-forward, for someone in the community who also wants to see art or join events, but is less financially fortunate.

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